A call to teach
The call to teach is universal, only a few will answer- A Course In Miracles
I feel the joy that comes from learning and how when I apply new concepts to my being I see the transformation and value.
I found my teacher through A Course In Miracles, Mami Onami. She wasn’t my first teacher, just the most impactful and still I currently learn from her every chance I get.
She was teaching ACIM then and began shortly after teaching from a system called the Fourth Way, It almost immediately felt right. I was drawn to her, she spoke my language and she shared in a way I could receive something new and use it practically.
She also danced, twerked and smoked weed, she gave zero fucks and I loved she was saying things I hadn’t heard before. It was also how she was saying it.
She teaches, along with the foundation of The Fourth Way, Authenticity. How can you be “yourself” if you dont know yourself”. Lots of her points and others from the system make sense like this and could hurt your feelings. There is no way to be sincere and yourself if you dont even know the basic functions of your machine, your behaviors, your lack of free will. She put it out there and I was like “yep, I wanna learn more”.
I could fully get behind the fact “Life is School” and I want to learn more… In my life of a hairstylist I had thought maybe I would teach, but truth is my desire to adventure and live on my own terms won that season. So I was inspired when I saw her teaching and living, and making a living by sharing what I was happy to buy.
In the years before I took Yoga teacher training I could notice the voice in my head teaching me as I pressed my palms down in to the mat, and the reminder to breathe.. I was also narrating. If I read something, or learn a new concept, I was hear it being explained in my mind as If was sharing it with someone who asked.
Then there was the fact I worked with humans, I was a Hairapist, Am a Hairapist. Still people open up so vulnerable in the chair, its me, its the space, the invitation is there. Add too it I am curious and want to share insight… and the I have been unsolicited “teaching” this whole time. The most relevant is when I teach them about their own hair and skin, Its simple but offers solutions, I love solutions.
A “Miracle” can be defined as a shift in perspective, seeing something in a new way. Something you thought was possible, now you see, or having resistance to a thought, person, or experience, and within an instant being open to it not being what you have already deemed it as.
If I share my why, it will feel more authentic to me, more honest. I find the human experience curious. I see the value in learning who we are and how we work. There has been many ways I have worked from money and shared a talent or skill, I believe teaching is a gift I can grow and practice. I enjoy it and at the core I feel life is school, and when you teach, you find out what you have learned. Additionally, I hope and aspire to be the best mom I can be. Presence and self-remembering seam central. The example I hope to be seen as is one of limitlessness. If I can do what I feel I am here to do, then so can you lil. I know there is a life I can live that feel fully aligned and creative, free from the burdens and weight of law in life that are meaningless. The importance of staying home and teaching my child is immeasurable, It feel worth the sacrifice. There will be payment, a sorta of suffering, I can either suffer in a job where I dont feel aligned, lit up and inspired, and suffer the life that brings ( anxious, disconnected, scared, angry…) Or I can suffer being seen, seen at all, or silly, judged, ridiculed ect, but im already doing that to myself…
I choose me, Me because if I am in harmony, harmony will be around me. I will not sacrifice that for my child. Building self-trust is a big part of the work for me, can I trust that I will do as I say. Can I see the effect if I do not, and are they great enough for me to make a change, yes. Plus I love deep intellectual conversations, I want to connect with others who connect with themselves. Then share the findings.
I want to experiment together. Learn together. After all I am just a student trying to understand more, and learned somewhere you have to teach what you know, to know what you know…..
